My biggest fear has finally came true..unfortunately I did not manage to make it through my english essay test.. I hate writing essay as I suck at it..I did prepare for the essay test and I did tried my best..I spend the whole week preparing the essay..wrote a couple of essays..but somehow I still felt that it wasn't good enough..and the worst thing to do is I started to panic on the last three days before the test..feeling that it was impossible for me to achieve 80%..and it did came true=( I know that some of you might think that I dont seem to be prepared for the exam, thats because all u see is just my last attempt on the essay.. From the moment I step into this course till now..one year down the road..I have asked myself uncountable times whether is this really what I want to do..despite of not liking the course, I chose to continue on. As I have made my decision, I know that I'm responsible for it..Seeing my coursemates(the few that I'm closest to) drop out from the course one by one..made me have the urge to quit the course too.. Sometimes it is so discouraging to see even u have put in a lot more effort than others while they can pass easily and all u get is just a fail.. Although I did try to get myself ready for this just incase I didnt get through..but it came too fast and I was not prepared..
Daddy..what should I do?I dont want to lose my trust in you even I failed..but how should I stay calm?would you give me the peace and show me what's my next step?..I need you..
