forgivenforget

2011-10-20T05:01:00.000-07:00

又是到了要写学生报告的时候
心房意乱怎么写啊?!
唉..饶了我吧:'(

2011-10-19T04:43:00.000-07:00

心里有种莫名的空虚
感觉像是缺了什么
却又有种说不出来的感觉

厌倦了这种生活方式
讨厌这种等待的心情
讨厌这种不晓得下一步会怎样的心情
除了等待就只有无奈

有时候真的在想生活到底有什么意义..

2011-09-12T04:14:00.000-07:00

突然有种想回马来西亚或到一个没有人认识我的地方去隐居。。
至少这样我能够放下面具去面对每一天。。
难道人就是这么厌恶的吗？

2011-04-24T02:02:00.000-07:00

Day 2 without you..

This morning when I woke up, I thought I heard your squeak asking for more carrot but when I look into the cage you were nowhere to be found. I swear I could smell you, it seems to me that you never left..

Every time I come home, the first thing to do was to say hello and give you and rabbit a pat. Every night I'll say goodnight and give you and rabbit a pat before I go to sleep. My heart sank every time I look into the cage to find that rabbit seems to be looking around for you. How am I gonna tell him that you are not coming back?

Today we brought a new little "house" home for rabbit. How perfect it would be if you're still here.I miss you Mocha:'(

2011-04-23T12:30:00.001-07:00

RIP Mocha 23 April 2011 *12.30pm*

Mocha 今早走了，她已经到天堂去了。
说不难过是假的，但值得安慰的是她去了一个再也没有病痛的地方。
过去的几天看着她的情况每况愈下，心里好像被刀割似的。
看着她一天又一天的在跟病魔奋战，心里好难受。
虽然她最终还是走了，但她是个战士，没有轻易地放弃过。

Mocha 我永远会记得你，你是独一无二的。
你在我心里的地位是没有任何东西能取代的。
庆幸的是短短的三个月里，我们建立了这特别的关系。
谢谢你给了我这机会去照顾你，是你教会了我该怎么去珍惜身边的一切。
纵使之前的你有多调皮，但我很想念你调皮的一面。

谢谢你给了我和小黑这美好的回忆，我们俩都会想你的。
我知道这只是暂时的离别，有一天我们会再见面。
再见了！

2011-02-13T05:17:00.000-08:00

goodbye curtin!

2011-01-17T01:30:00.000-08:00

让我的两个可爱的小朋友来介绍他们自己..

大家好我们是Mocha和小黑！

我是Mocha！我喜欢吃也喜欢欺负小黑不知道为什么大家都爱说我胖。。就连医生叔叔也说我超重怎么可以这样说我？？我很可爱的好不好:P

轮到我了！轮到我了！我是小黑！我的主人的朋友说我是‘洋兔子’ 因为我的眼睛是蓝色的，但是我没有金发呵呵你也被我水蓝色的眼睛迷住了吗？:))

2011-01-11T02:43:00.000-08:00

Time for some update here hehe..

This year's new year isn't really a good start..

not ready to share what's going on in my mind..

New year isn't a good start for Australia either..

My heart goes out to the victims of the flood in Queensland and Brisbane..

Also to the victims of the bush fire in Western Australia..

My prayers are with you!

2010-12-24T05:12:00.000-08:00

今年的圣诞好特别，最近几乎每天都出去party，平安夜却选择了静静地在家过哈哈。。我本来就是个怪人所以不要希奇呵呵。。

有了微博之后我就更少上来了，请原谅我喜新厌旧嘻嘻：p

好啦，大家平安夜快乐！明天就是圣诞节了，好快哦！！

对了，这是我生平的第一棵圣诞树！现在只缺少了雪：/ 我要白色圣诞！！

2010-12-08T09:55:00.000-08:00

想到一个会下雪的地方过圣诞。。我要弄个超大的雪人！! 我也想打雪球！！

2010-12-03T05:14:00.000-08:00

这是几个月前，我在小M和立璇的订婚party里给他们的一个惊喜。今天才收到这片段，所以今天才放上来。没有画面，因为我这个电脑痴不懂怎样正确地上载+__+

在这里再次祝福你们俩啦！：]

2010-11-26T04:09:00.000-08:00

你说你也不想这样，为了你这个理由我等了又等。。我累了。。不想再等了。。我不想无时无刻都在猜你在想什么。。我不想天天都过得那么辛苦。。我要学着放手。。让你走，也让自己好过些。。

A new word...

2010-11-17T03:12:00.000-08:00

A new word...

parents + family = pamily

isn't that cute? hahaha..

Christmas carol

2010-11-16T02:33:00.000-08:00

My favourite christmas carol is..........

Away in a manger!

What's yours?:]

2010-11-15T13:43:00.000-08:00

EEeeeek..Christmas is nearly here! yupe..time sure flies! Since young I have always have a dream - Christmas in Disney!! hehe..
I know I know, I'm no longer 6 or 12 years old..I get that but it is still a dream that I would very much like it to come true! one day..hopefully one day it will come true:]

2010-09-19T02:50:00.000-07:00

黃小琥 - 伴
作詞：姚若龍 / 作曲：于曉光、李偉菘 / 編曲：Terence Teo

如果命運可以訂做

如果有另一次選擇

我想我還是會把手讓你緊握

快樂地陪你去坎坷

就算你有天變落魄

就算你老得不能動

我想我還是會挽著你看日落

你的心疼在淚光中

嘴巴上彼此嫌麻煩

眼神中關懷那麼滿

沒說愛卻早已認定一輩子的伴

在人前從來不浪漫

在心中卻總為對方打算

最懂的人最暖的伴

就算我以後變囉嗦

就算我老了有病痛

我想你還是會照顧我到最後

隱藏脆弱不眠不休

沒有辛酸沒有遺憾

什麼是陪伴什麼是心安你是答案

2010-06-04T09:08:00.000-07:00

记事本-周传雄
翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
重新来过

2010-05-02T01:21:00.000-07:00

Last night I desperately need a rant, but didn’t feel like talking. Didn’t want to go back down the road where I’ll keep whining and complaining..didn’t want to give myself any excuses to stop and linger around things. I guess toughen up is the only option I have, life goes on.

Just before going into bed last nite, I secretly told Him in my prayer ‘just tell me something, you know I need to hear it..’

“Son, this is going to be okay”. God is whispering the same to you. Those are his arms you feel. Trust him. That is his voice you hear. Believe him. Allow the only decision maker in the universe to comfort you. Life at times appears to fall to pieces, seems irreparable. But it’s going to be okay. How can you know? Because God so loved the world. And,

Since he has no needs, you cannot tire him.
Since he is without age, you cannot lose him.
Since he has no sin, you cannot corrupt him.
If God can make a billion galaxies, can’t he make good out of our bad and sense out of our faltering lives? Of course he can. He is God. He not only flies the plane, but he knows the passengers and has a special place for those who are sick and ready to get home.
(taken from 3:16 The numbers of hope by Max Lucado)

How amazing is Him:)

2010-05-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

Sorry to disappoint, as much as I hate to do this..but my first post after the lack of update over the last couple of months has to be a gloomy one.

After you told us what you intent to do the other night, I have the gut feeling that this day is gonna come real soon (although I secretly praying that it would not) despite being told to wait. No surprise, you broke the news today. It feels weird for the first time that someone ever told you that they are engaged, however you do not feel happy for them. Don’t get me wrong, I am glad that you told me especially you’re someone that I care. However, I can’t help but to be disappointed. Is it the wrong timing? wrong person? or what?

I don’t know what else to say, hence I chose to remain silent. Now I only hope for the best..be it for you or for D & M.

2010-03-04T14:55:00.000-08:00

An awesome song that got me hooked..

Glorified

Rory Comtois | MySpace Music Videos

Lord I come into your Holy place.
Stand in awe, of your cleansing grace.
Who am I, that you would care for me?
I glorified the one who died for me.

Chorus:

Glorify, glorify
Let your name be lifted up and glorified
Let the earth tremble at your name
Let your name be lifted up and glorified

Verse 2:
Into your hands, I commit my life
Day by day as a living sacrifice
Who am I that you would care for me?
I glorify the one who died for me

2010-03-03T15:02:00.000-08:00

Hello hello I am back! stay tuned for more updates:)

2010-01-02T01:05:00.000-08:00

New year, new journey!

Its 2010 now! That's right, 2009 has come to an end!2009 has been such a horrific year, all I wish for is a better year this year.

Cant believe it took me 2 months to write up a post, simply because I have so many things in mind but not in the stage to share. Sad to say that right now how I wish that you have never came into my life.. how I wish that I have never gotten to know you. Now, all I wish for is for you to get out of my life and stay away from my family! Stop pretending to be like a pathetic kitty that tries to get everyone's sympathy!The best actress award belongs to none other than you, all yours! happy?!

Enough said, no more rumbling about you because I don't give a sh*t of you anymore. 2010 - new year, new journey. I believe the best is yet to come. I shall blog about something more interesting tmr:)

2009-10-20T01:28:00.000-07:00

P.E.A.C.E

The feeling of lost is definitely turning me upside down now. Sometimes I feel so ashamed of myself whenever I get angry or upset because of the injustice or unfairness I felt. But who am I to judge others when I have my ugly side?

Long ago, I find myself no longer being able to call this "home"..along the way things get worse that I felt like escaping from this place..and it worsen till the extend that I desperately seeking for any excuses that i could find to escape from this place simply because I know that I no longer could tolerate with how things works. I have always knew that disagreement would not bring me anywhere but what am I waiting for? a miracle that one day the 1% of impossibility will out beat the 99%? but who am I trying to kid?

Few days ago, things got worse. I didnt feel any happier neither do I felt any more miserable simply because my disappointment had outweigh whatever feeling that is in me. Today a phone call from a friend has finally brought me back to the reality of facing it. During the phone conversation, I'm surprise with myself that I was able to come clean with however I am feeling. The very first time I am able to express whatever that is in my mind without holding anything back. Despite of all these, I felt that I am really blessed to have a friend that care, always being there to give me advice and needless to say the support that I could get. I sincerely like to thank you for the phone call which changes how I feel right now.

Although I do not understand why things has to be done in this way, but tonight I feel different. Truth will set you free, indeed it will. At least I felt the peace, maybe because this is the peace that I have been after..

Does my journey end here? Sadly to say I really don’t know..what is my next step gonna be? I really don’t know..what could I say with all the uncertainties I am left with? I don’t know..I could only pray that God will give me wisdom while handling all these or while I made my decision..

2009-10-04T01:03:00.000-07:00

想起第一眼我们的冷漠，我们的认识，我们的装模作样，
你的不知不觉，我的后知后觉，
觉得自己很迟钝，以为不可能发生，以为两人只是很要好，以为只是那样，
没去想那么多，直到身边的好朋友提醒，才警觉从未细心聆听自己的心跳。
原来从一开始那就是个开始。

我一直都觉得，我们是注定的一对。
虽然曾经被认为是不应该的，流言非语，你叫我别去管，我就不在意。
我相信，每一段感情，最怀念的就是暧昧时的酸甜。
我很怀念，你刚开始喜欢上我的那天，那个时刻，那个感觉。

虽然今天这一切都不再像往日般，
但经历了这许多的变化，
我们依然可以成为朋友，
也许这也是我们该感到庆幸的吧。

再过两个星期，您又要飞回来参加珊的婚礼了，
到时候见吧！

2009-09-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

We decided to cam whore with the lonely penguin when we pay a visit to icey ice last nite. Here's my personal favourite:

and...

heeh:p

2009-09-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

"..In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day.."

-You hold me now by Hillsong-

2009-09-20T22:45:00.000-07:00

已经好久没有在这儿留言了
忙，只是个借口
思考了一段时间
心里还是存着一个疑问
我是否该继续保留这个记录着我生活里点滴的空间

不晓得是自己不愿在此发表心底里的感受
还是找不到适合的词语
还是顾虑着读者的感受（依我的性格，这最不可能）
许多心底里的感想都没有被放上这儿
这岂不是失去了保存这空间的用意吗？

有时候真得恨自己总是这么犹豫不决
删除还是保存？
到底改选哪个？

撇开话题
那天收到您寄来的短讯
心里是有点欢喜，却又不是滋味的
总是不明白为什么自己就是那么矛盾
也许是自己想通了，想挤身事外所以才会喜忧参半吧（哈，乱用词语）

不管了
许多事情都不在我的掌控之内
为什么还要忧虑那么多
俗语说“忍一时，风平浪静；退一时，海阔天空”
又再乱用词语了..

不管了，
最重要是..
你明白，我明白就好了=）

2009-09-15T01:01:00.000-07:00

The new addition to the family. Let me present you....Mark the bear!:)

my personal favourites among all the photos:

(Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!)

and

(the lovey dovey:p)

冷漠

2009-08-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

今天心里依然藏着一个疑问..
到底朋友的定义是什么?
与一个夺走您可贵的东西或亲人的朋友..
您又是否能继续这段友情？

我自问我办不到，
我已经到了无法容忍的地步..
也许下一秒当我再次见到你的时候..
我或许会选择与你擦肩而过，视你为陌生人..
因为我不晓得我还能怎样看待你..

2009-08-16T14:01:00.000-07:00

这几天的心情，犹如近来的天气
总是阴晴不定
埋藏在心底里不安的感觉
终于都实验了

我真的不晓得我是否还应该再叫你一声朋友
不要怪我无情
因为对你我真得无话可说
现在的我真的不知道该带着怎么样的心情来面对你

至于另一个你
我实在无法理解你为什么会有这样的想法
对你我已完全失去信心
我也不知道我该带着怎么样的心情来面对你
难道您真地认为事情引发到这个地步,您一点责任也没有吗?

对你们俩, 我感到无比的失望
两个我都重视的人
是时候我该把你们俩都当作陌生人了吗?

2009-08-10T01:53:00.000-07:00

Sweettt!

maybe I should start planning trips to Disneyland:P

2009-07-06T01:57:00.000-07:00

After watching transformers 2...

the more I want to drive a TRUCK!!:p

2009-06-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

Ferrari ?????!

My manager burst out laughing out of sudden yesterday afternoon, it didnt take long for us to know what was going on. This is how it goes..

A guy queued in the line with the rest of the customers, and came to the counter with his laptop when its finally his turn..
Me: Hi, how can I help you today.
Guy: (with a serious face)I want to see your manager.
Me: Ok. (thought something was wrong..turn around to head to the kitchen to get the manager).

2 minutes later..

me continue to serve customers while the manager came out to speak to the guy. Few minutes later, the guy left a piece of paper with the manager and left. After the guy left for ten minutes, the manager burst out laughing...

Manager: The guy I just spoke to, in his resume he wrote the reason why he wants to work here is so that he could buy a Ferrari.
Everybody: *burst out laughing*
Colleague A: Oh boy, he must be applying the wrong job.
Me: Maybe you should ask him how long does he plan to work here in order to get the Ferrari.
Collegue S: *speechless*

There you go..a laughter a day, keeps the insanity away:p

2009-06-23T01:02:00.000-07:00

When I got home from work today, mum greeted me at the door..assuring me that there's something delicious for me to eat. From mum's look, I was thinking that it must be something special. So first thing to do was to dumped all my stuff aside and check out what's in the kitchen. Indeed, it was something special. I found two trays of pau and mantou! all handmade by mum and dad:) Good stuff man! didnt take any photo of the pau and mantou, and its all gone now! mum said she's gonna make more pau tmr:p

Been having too much good food lately! loh mai kai (chicken with glutinous rice)..pau & mantou..what's next?! hmmm..I'm gonna attempt making radish cake soon-ish, the radish been sitting in the fridge for two days and the rest of the ingredients are all in the cupboard. This time round, since mum and dad came back to Perth with a huge bottle of kahlua..I'll be attempting to make tiramisu too! I also bought red bean the other day, am ready to make Shang Hai red bean pancake! I can hear it all calling out to me, all I need is time:)

2009-06-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

You in me by Juwita Suwito

Everytime I look into Your eyes
There's a pleasant surprise awaiting me and amazing me
Somehow I realize I'm so tired of the lies they keep telling me
Telling me I should look down inside in myself to find something greater
When I know I can look at the bright sight and find the Creator

I just need to spend one moment with You
Somehow it's a brand new world I'm passing through
You lift me higher, You let me see
Over the walls that surrounded me
Don't need to prove myself, just need to show and tell
It's You in me

The other day a wolf in sheep in disguise
Told me goodness would buy a day or two for me in Paradise
I could never pay the price, not with a million lives

But it' d done for me
Why should I just depend on myself and pretend I'll find something greater
When I know I can look at the bright side and find the Creator

372 days to go :)

2009-06-07T01:28:00.000-07:00

I am happy that you called..
glad to hear your voice..
glad to hear your laughter..
I guess we are one step closer to building this relationship:)

2009-06-04T01:34:00.000-07:00

Once again, you made my day..

For me

For u

2009-06-03T01:52:00.000-07:00

I'm finally back to work after being MIA for 3 weeks..wohooOO! Somehow I enjoy working life more, but I bet I will eat my own words once I graduate and officially step into the REAL working world. I really do enjoy working and studying at the same time, at least it makes me feel more accomplish. However, I might need to consider quitting my job next semester as I am gonna have a real tough and busy semester with all the heavy loaded units+.+

Today I have a really weird day at work, why weird some of you might ask. For some reason, I am never a fan of reality show, neither do I like seeing the drama at my work place. At times, things just get really ugly. Its funny how sometimes you look at all these drama, u just want to laugh your a*s off. A used to swear at C when he just started working...B does not even greet C when he comes to work...but after C become the manager...A and B pretend to be real good friends...B bitching behind A's back...A and B competing to see who is closer to C...B went to Japan with C...A wore the same jacket as C...B gave C a goodbye kiss..and fyi, A and B are both attach o.O

Enough of all these drama, I'm waiting for the best ever show - Criminal Minds. As you can tell, I am a huge fan of it heeh:p Criminal Minds rocks!!:))

2009-05-21T01:13:00.000-07:00

雨，一滴一滴地下...

我讨厌雨季
我讨厌那种湿湿的感觉
我讨厌那满是灰云的天空

我唯一怀念的
就是与你一起看彩虹的日子
今天会有彩虹吗？
我不晓得，但我蛮期待的..

2009-05-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

I finally went on a trip with baby Blaze( also named Blazy) today..so glad that she's finally back after being left in the garage for countless months..and after spending 2 or 3 weeks in the workshop, she's finally back in running. *vroom vroom* Go girl, you rock! Always on fire! that's how the name came about heeh:p

Oh btw, Oscar has a new scatch on the face:( thanks to some awesome driver who study in C*rtin *sarcastic*..oh man, the car park there seriously cannot make it! limited parking slot but unlimited parking permit *pfftt*, and someone else's car got a huge dense now thanks to the tree trunk which fell directly on it..Wow, thanks man..another one year plus Oscar gonna have to risk his life while waiting for me to finish class=s

Anyway, glad to have you back baby Blaze:)

2009-05-16T06:08:00.000-07:00

This is for the special you..I know its tough, but hang in there yea:)

Send out a prayer by Anointed

You try to say that nothing's wrong
but my heart can feel right through your camaflouge
don't try to tell me you'll be strong
I've been there too I know this road is hard oh yeah

when the ache feels stronger
than the strength you feel inside
it's there in your weakness
his grace will abide

Just let me send out a prayer, a cry
for help to heaven from me
Just let me send out a prayer,
Speak hope into despair for you

Let me send out a prayer for you

We're to help each other, weather these storms together
In the name of love.
That's what friends are all about. Here to help each other out.
When the push comes to shove. Ohhh.

I'll pray you through anything that you face.
Don't worry about a thing. Cuz I'll plead your case.

Just let me send out a prayer a cry,
for help to heaven from me. (Send down a prayer, send down a prayer)
Just let me send down a prayer
speak hope into despair for you

No need to worry cuz I'm in your corner.
No matter how the road may turn. (May turn, ooo yeah, mmmm)

I'll pray you through anything that you face
Don't worry about a thing cuz I'll plead your case.

Send out a prayer, a cry
for help to heaven from me. (A prayer away, A prayer away)
Just let me send out a prayer, a cry
for help to heaven from me.(Send out a prayer, send out a prayer)
Send out a prayer for you, send out a prayer for you

2009-05-11T01:55:00.000-07:00

This is one of the video clip my group used for our divorce presentation today..hilarious yet true!:p

2009-05-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

是与否...

我是否能接受最坏的结果?
我是否能接受您的抉择?
我是否已做好最坏的打算?
我是否能接受这一切的改变?

也许我能..
也许不能..
我不晓得...

2009-05-06T11:48:00.000-07:00

我想念...

简简单单的生活
平平淡淡的日子
但这一切却似乎离我越来越远

生活里的变化..
事情的突发..
为难的抉择..
让我非常地吃不消..

我晓得这一切已不能回到开始的原点
也晓得这一切也总有要了结的一天
只愿接下来的日子事情会越变越好吧

我期待...
我渴望...
我等待...
盼望着这一切都将成为过去...
只愿最后的结果都是大家想要的...

2009-05-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

Geng!.
siao!..
crazy!...
insane!....
amazing!.....
awesome!......
madness!.......
the bomb!.......
remarkable!......
incredible!.......
I run out of words to describe it=s
one last word - breathtaking!!

2009-04-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

Congrats! really happy for you both M&D:)

on the side note: dearie, sorry for not realizing what was upset-ing u. I really didn't mean it. I know I was selfish and inconsiderate. But they are my friends and I just wanted to share the happiness with u, didnt mean to make you feel this way. I know it seem to you that I dont really care,but the actual fact is I do, just that I dont show..

2009-04-19T01:39:00.000-07:00

Every beat of my heart by Corrine May

So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way

'cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart

Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..

Tiredness sank into me a while ago..
Thought I kept it pretty well..
Somehow you saw it..
The moment a hand pull me back..
I knew its time..
I knew that I could not contain any longer..
The feeling of unleashing every single things deep down my heart and just cried..
makes me feel lighter, easier..
Thank you for being there..
Thank you for the shoulder..
Thank you!=)

on the side note :

Happy Birthday to my beloved Dad! =) *photo taken last year*

2009-04-17T17:51:00.000-07:00

I hate it when people don't take my words seriously..
Don't blame me when I get fed up and just decided to start firing..

"xx can only make it earlier of the week. you decide and tell me when you are free and can make it.."

Didn't I already tell you that I am only free at the end of the week??
Didn't I told you what the reason was??
Yes, I know that its better if we all can be there for the meeting..
But fyi, I am studying, working..and also I have my commitment to other ministry..
I am only just one person, I can't possibly split myself into different pieces..
So please understand the position I am in..
Like what I've said- please go forth with the meeting and update me later..unless you can wait!
That's all I am gonna say..don't get me repeat this the third time!!

2009-04-16T01:56:00.000-07:00

This will be an entry with overload photos.Just decided to make myself happy with reviewing all these happy moments..

2009-03-30T06:30:00.000-07:00

A song that I have been searching for...

The Anthem - Planetshakers

2009-03-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

478 days to go..

I cant believe your're counting down to the day..

U really make my day! :):):)

2009-03-08T23:08:00.000-07:00

Love is in the air...
Another couple..
Another wedding..
and I'm singing for another wedding!
maybe I should be a wedding singer?
nah..just kidding!
all the guests would ran away:p
but dearie, just for u!
this would be the last wedding I'm gonna be singing..
last one before my reputation all gone:p
Congrats for the engagement!
I'm really excited for your wedding:)

2009-03-04T15:54:00.000-08:00

一年半的时间说长不长，说短不短..
有人在等待的感觉真的很不同..
有时候期待..
有时候不知所措..
有时候觉得好傻..
有时候质疑是否值得..

前面会是怎么样的路？我也不晓得..
但因我有承诺在先..
就让时间去考验一切吧..
这一年半会有什么样的变化呢？
我也不晓得..
只有拭目以待吧..

2009-01-18T04:14:00.000-08:00

moving soon..real soon!heeh:p

2009-01-08T06:29:00.000-08:00

Here I am..spending the last half an hour of my birthday blogging. This few days its been so happening. Birthday dinner last nite at south perth, tonite at Yip Kee..birthday lunch in city tmr, dim sum here I come!=))

The overflown incoming birthday wishes started last nite ard 10 plus. Woke up this morning realizing some of the messages couldnt send through because my phone memory was full. One of the ultimate suprise was an email from an old friend of mine. To be exact, its from my best friend in Malaysia which we havent keep in touch in a long while. A short and sweet note that really melts my heart. Thank you dearie! Oh..thanks for the parcel thats on its way in advance although I have no idea what's inside=)) On the other hand, thank you to all of you who sms, left a msg on facebook and also fighting to be the first one or last one to call to wish me happy birthday=)

Another ultimate highlight is I finally hit the beach after like how many gazilion years from the day I have been wanting to go. Well, the surprising thing was I went into the water. However, I still wouldnt conside water as my friend:p Went Yip Kee for dinner, ate my favourite dishes - the Yip Kee fried chicken and the toothfish with thai sauce *slurp*. Awesome! four person turn out to be the whole zone hah. Surprise surprise! Thank you everyone for coming and also for the cake(that was claim to be baked by the guys):p

joke of the day..
While the waiter bring out the cake, the candle went off..
Waiter: oh wait, let me light the candle again..
The waiter light the candle..
Waiter: ok, now you can make a wish.
S: wish for discount..wish for discount!
Waiter: Hmm..this one cannot lah..
All: LOl

2009-01-04T06:57:00.000-08:00

Believe it or not, 2008 is now a history. And now, we have step into the first month of 2009! How was my new year/new year eve? it was just another ordinary day. wake up..go work..watch series. Well, of course that includes the usual routine of the day - breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Went over to the Myer st for bbq tonite. When each of us was asked about our emo song, my brain went blank. Mainly because its been a while since I listen to emo songs. Well to be exact, for some reason I do not allow myself to listen to all those worldly emo songs anymore. Anyhow, at the end I came up with a christian emo song instead - "home sick" by MercyMe. Not to be holy, but thats the only emo song I could think of which I really like..

home sick

Song Lyrics

2008-12-14T08:43:00.000-08:00

malay song..its been so long since I listened to one. A friend of mine send me this a few days ago..

Bunga Citra Lestari on 6Lyrics.com

Aku Tak Mau Sendiri - Bunga Citra Lestari

2008-11-29T07:05:00.000-08:00

Everything seems to be pretty overwhelming lately..never ending assignments, never ending decision making, never ending things to settle..etc etc

Well, at least the assignments are all over now:)) For the rest, I'll leave it up to Daddy..just pray that everything will go according to His plan=) On the other hand, I'm really looking forward to January..cant wait!! heeh:p

On the side note, I realize I am someone who HATES assumption. Just an example that happen tonite, when I ask for confirmation on smtg..if someone tells me so and so will settle it, I cant help but to ask for further confirmation. Well, I know I am not someone who can be cool if I know that certain things could be done in advance to avoid all the problems. Also, I would definitely not want to wake up early in the morning and to have all the problems shoot at me. That is just me. Not that I dont trust the person, but I would rather avoid all the hazard of having arguments at the end. In a nutshell, I just dont like to leave things hanging. Is that good or bad? ..

2008-11-24T16:44:00.000-08:00

Idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot! idiot!!!!!!!!!

Stupid lady! I pray for you to lose your driver licence man! seriously, I really wonder where you get your kopi-O licence from..I so want to sue the licencing centre for issuing you your licence!!!! honestly, if you think your life is just worth a piece of sh*t..it does not mean that other people's lifes worth the same can??!

two cars! TWO cars nearly got into accident because of YOU!! seriously I have never seen such an ignorant driver like YOU!! I horned, not only you didnt stop..instead you still zoom out SLOWLY when I was just right in front of you! Not only you didnt stop when you are suppose to STOP AND WAIT..you can still act like as if you dont care when you are the one who is being idiotic..

Oh man, until now I still can hear the tyre screeching sound playing in my mind over and over again..I bet the car behind me who nearly knock into my car was cursing in his car too..*sigh* seriously, I would go sue the licencing centre if I ever find out where you get your licence from. seriously, my advice to you - if you ever want to drive like that again, do consider of throwing your licence away and stay away from the road because you are putting other people's life in danger!!..or else pls go somewhere far far away where there's no other cars or people, then you can drive how ever you like..no one else is gonna care about that..

2008-11-23T01:31:00.000-08:00

Good news? great news?..

hopefully everything will go well..
by His grace I know it will :))
anyway, I shall not announce it till the official date..
*nyek nyek nyek nyek*

ok, back to reality..time to continue with assignments..*sigh*
nevermind, just a lil bit more and I'm done..jia you!jia you!

2008-11-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

It was only last nite that we spoke about the possible change, came home with a thousands or hundreds of 'I dont think so' in my mind. I prayed and off to bed I went..

Today u spoke to me twice. TWICE!..and it was so unbelievable. First message was already there for days, and today I finally get the chance to sit down and read. After that when I proceed on to read today's online devotion, I couldnt believe what I was reading..twice!TWICE!! and you spoke about the same thing!!

Why not earlier? why not later? I knew pretty well that there's no "coincidence" such word in your dictionary. Yet the hundred and thousands of 'why' and 'but I dont think I can' is still here bugging me. Hence I asked Tim to pray for me after service today...

Father, I pray for you to open up my eyes to see your plan. Assure me one more time, if that is your will..

2008-11-11T01:14:00.000-08:00

I bought Oscar a huge drink today. I mean a HUGE one. He's happy with a bloated tummy now. With the recent dropping of the price of his power drink, the price I usually paid for half tank (oklah above half tank but less than 3 quarter) is the price I paid today=) On top of that , with the 4 cents voucher thingy..I paid 2 dollars lesser. He's happy now. Its been so long since the last time he had a bloated tummy..Oscar is a happy boy!

2008-11-10T07:51:00.000-08:00

Does the bouncy ball look familiar to you? it does to me! During closing today, my colleague picked up a bouncy ball (which I believe it was left behind by our customer) while cleaning the floor. We were bouncing it around and our manager was laughing at our "childishness" haha:p Bouncy ball..when was the last time I saw one? when was the last time I own one? when was the last time I played with one? I reckon years ago..

Someone let the childhood relive please!! Bouncy ball..anyone?

2008-11-09T08:11:00.000-08:00

No Cottlesloe today..but with abt 10 hours of efficient work on my assignment..I felt the accomplishment hehe:p

Anyway, shall end with the conversation between me and my friend after I came back from studying in UWA. I shall name him 'M'..
M: How's your assignment going?
me: not too bad. I have a productive day today, but my brain is fried now..
M: So how does it taste like?
me: Huh?
M: Does it taste like fried tofu?
me: Huh? o.O

after two minutes..

me: Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh! idiot! =.='
M: hah..so slow.
me: I told you my brain is fried!
M: Thats why I ask you how does it taste like..*laugh*
me: whatever! =.="

2008-11-08T01:10:00.000-08:00

Looking at the calender..I cant believe it has been a year. 9 November..the day that I hated the most, the day that I hate myself the most..and the day that I hate you the most! One year..its been one year..I wonder how would tmr be like after one year..nothing for me to look forward, neither do I want to look back..

I shall go see the sunset tmr..hello Cottlesloe beach, I shall be there!=)

2008-11-04T08:25:00.001-08:00

This song really reminds me of my students. They performed this song the last time they were hosting the school assembly. I miss them :'(

Boomp3.com

2008-11-03T06:33:00.000-08:00

Yesterday afternoon, Oscar's butt ran into his friend. My bad. I think my heart literally jumped out for 5 seconds man!! "crap..crap..crap" was all I could think of, before realising it was the friend that we ran into. Luckily, no mark was left. If u think thats the end of the story, you're so wrong haha.. cuz after that the friend's butt was injured by the other chia family later in the same afternoon..hahahaXD

2008-10-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

What a day..

A moody morning..woke up with a bad headache. Canceled my brekky date with Miss L. Went back to sleep more and woke up feeling better..

I have a bad dream last night..I cant rmb the whole dream but the only thing I can rmb was I failed to protect a little girl from one of her hand being chopped off by a little boy..???????? what is that suppose to mean?! the weird thing is I seem to have the same dream before, cuz I seem to have seen it somewhere before..actually I'm quite sure I've seen this before.."dream dream go away, don't ever come again" * with the 'rain rain go away, come again another day' tone*

ok, I shall end with a nice song..in fact,its one of my favourite song:p Sarah McLachlan is such an awesome singer!! and this song is just indescribably good..

2008-10-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

2 weeks ago, I sang this song on a wedding of a friend of mine. Time really flies! It felt like the wedding was just yesterday. Congrats guys,your new journey had just started!=)

This seems to be quite a popular wedding song thou! Apart from that wedding, my cousin used the same song for his wedding which was just about a month plus ago..

I like both version. One is with Backstreet Boys, and the other one is with Bryan White. Each has its uniqueness=)

2008-10-22T20:56:00.000-07:00

"You're the reason I believe in love..
my dream came true because of you.."

=)

2008-10-13T01:47:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I last update this blog..yep, Jan has been busy..busy..busy! she's down with too many things at the moment...

Oh man..2 consecutive ho-rri-zi-ble weeks have passed! Another two more horrible weeks and my life will be slightly better. Persevere Jan! it will soon be over:)) In the midst of the coming two weeks, any of you want to volunteer(like Ale) to let me rant out..just let me know. I promise u just need to listen to my whinning thats all heeh:))

Speaking about coffee, I love coffee=) However, how izit possible to make a cappuccino without coffee taste? I have no idea! But thats absolutely possible, cuz I just drank one!! *yucks* However, someone that I know have make it possible! If u want to try how izit taste like, just let me know. I'll get u one heeh:p but dont ask, cuz i wont tell u where I get the coffee from as its a secret! :p SHHHhhh!*zip*

2008-10-04T09:57:00.000-07:00

Once again, tiredness sank in..
what makes it worst was disappointment..
No doubt, my hesitation became clearer..
tears was once my enemy, and still is..

everytime I ask 'how am I suppose to get through this?'..
You told me when I trust, I'll be able to..
But how?..

decision was left to make..
all I have is unknown..
all I have is hundred and thousands of 'I dont know'..

longing to be embrace by You..
longing to be soak in Your presence..
longing to hear Your voice..

when I fail to see you..
when I fail to hear your voice..
Thank you for putting friends in my life,
who's willing to listen,encourage and pray for me..
Thank you!

Daddy, shine the path that you have for me..so that I could walk in your light. Guide me, and lead me to your way I pray..

2008-09-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

Once again, u left..

Once again, it sinks in to realize your absences..

bahhh..I just cant stand the quietness and emptiness..

I miss the company..

I miss you..

2008-09-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

Oh my! this is so cool!! If given the chance, I would really want to experience event like this where they gather all the artists from different part of the world. I heart this kind of event simply because I've always have this passion about drawing. Now, why do I say this is cool? Come to think about it, artists are usually very particular with their art work and given all of them who are in different areas of arts(like some are street graffiti artists, some are cartoonish illustration artists..etc) could work together without colliding with each other..this is simply amazing!! What more about them having a live challenge!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh* Why wouldnt they come to perth:(( If they do, I comfirm plus chop will go!!..

2008-09-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

Sunday...

is the day I enjoy the most=)

is the day I look forward the most=))

why?..

because I get to play tennis=)

because I get to whack ball to burn out all the energy and anger in me=))

because I get to aim and whack the ball on ppl=))) *nah,I'm just kidding*

As a conclusion...

Jan loves Sunday!!!=)

2008-09-20T21:42:00.000-07:00

Respect..

What does respect mean to you?

I have no idea..

But all I can say is you're losing my respect..

becuz I absolutely hate people doing things behind my back..

Mind you, this is not your first time!!

I dare you to talk to me face to face if u have the guts to do it behind my back..

If only you will...

* Jan is still in the process of cooling down*

2008-09-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

原来，我还未学会...

有谁可以告诉我，是如何做到最完美的体谅?
为什么最近的我会变得如此不懂迁让不懂宽容大方.
越来越自私，是为什么?
以前的我并不是这样子的，是吗?
越来越害怕自己，就连自己也快不能控制自己了.
到底怎么了.

为什么我偏偏学不会.
明明就找不到理由来责怪，自己却又无法控制地不开心.
根本不懂得看开，放开怀抱。根本就是自己霸道自私的一面.
我很想完全坦白，但又害怕那就是约束的开始.
忍着不说，自己又不争气地掉眼泪.
有点厌恶自己的不成熟和情绪化.

这一切一切，是因为前面有遥遥无期的等待而觉压力吗?
我不想去想像，只是，一切好像真的不容易.
距离，真的是有一种无法形容的魔力.
让人越想做好，克服它，打败它，却越是感到并不轻易.
是时候进入另一个值得考验的阶段了.
渡过了，未来的日子会更稳固.

只是当你有很多话想要说，很多感想和想法想要分享，却一一被迫推迟.
等到夜深人静，彼此都感觉累的时候，很多的话和想法，其实就略略带过，甚至没了那个冲动去诉说.
也可能，在等待的时间里慢慢逐一过滤要说的，省略掉觉得好像不必要的.
到最后，能说的还会有几句?
期待和失望，期待然后又失望.
我知道是我个人的问题，只是我个人的情绪问题.
以前的日子，不也是这样走过来的吗?
还是那时候的我无论多累都还可以滔滔不绝?

原谅我的不成熟.
也许我还未学到真正的看得开，或是我太在乎自己的感受.
所以才会在不介意的同时却又难免不开心.
又或是，我还未真正学会完美的体谅.

我会尽量做到最好的,
不放弃.

2008-09-17T09:32:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel much better now! Time to go back to my work. I know! I know! I have been MIA-ing..maybe for a while more then I'll be back...

2008-09-12T07:13:00.000-07:00

C is for...

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After cell, while all of us were gathering around the table for refreshment...

K : Hey guys, please take the carrots and corn from the soup.
L : The corn not sweet leh.
J : *Look to K* eh, u didnt sweet talk the corn before u put it into the soup izit?
K&JT : hah..lame!

after a while, K turn to J..

K : eh, put the corn on your knee. Thats you!
J : =.="

2008-09-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

J is for...

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Jelly!! dad & mum bought this for us to snack while studying:P

side note: To all the readers of this blog, may I please request you not to display my full name when you link my blog to yours or when u leave a comment on the chat box. Just so that I can keep my online privacy, as I do not wish to let my supervisor or students to find out about this blog. I might remove this blog when the day comes that I realize they have discover the existence of this blog. For now, I would greatly appreciate for your help! Thank you!=)

2008-09-10T01:53:00.000-07:00

对不起...

海风已成了我们之间的回忆..
还记得您曾经在大海的面前，向我诉说您心底的话..
那一刻似乎像是昨天刚发生的事..
曾经我们无所不谈,
但昨天再次见到您，
我选择了回避..

明明知道您将会到来参加豪的毕业典礼，
虽然已做好了心理准备也许会碰上您..
见到您就站在豪身旁的那一刻，
我却好想掉头走..
最后却硬着头皮地上前祝贺豪，
跟豪拍了张照，说了短短的几句话就走了..

最后与您见面的那一次，
您关心我的那些问题，
我一句也答不出来，也许连我自己也不知道答案是什么，
或许也不想让自己听见自己说出心底里的话..

再给我一些时间吧！
此时此刻的我，
依然不能将过去的一切当没一回事..

2008-09-09T07:15:00.000-07:00

People say "chocolate can make people happy"..well, I think it depends on individual. As for me, I dont think so. Although I do wish that it would work on me!

Once again, I have let the insecurity sink into me..

Daddy, I'm tired. I know that I'm weak, but you are strong. I pray for your will to be done, not mine..

2008-09-08T01:38:00.000-07:00

True humility is not thinking lowly of yourself but thinking accurately of yourself. The humble heart does not say, "I can't do anything." But rather, "I can't do everything. I know my part and am happy to do it."

-Max Lucado-
A Love Worth Giving

2008-09-07T01:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Fathers' Day!!=)

2008-09-05T03:56:00.000-07:00

YuMMmmm!!..

this is so good!*slurp*

2008-09-04T01:21:00.001-07:00

Ladies and gentleman,let me introduce you to my new friend..

Junior Oscar

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Timmy!

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now they are friends too!:P

2008-09-03T04:01:00.000-07:00

Huh?!? *sweatz*

2008-09-02T15:46:00.000-07:00

guess who??!

Have a guess before u scroll down to look at the answer!:P

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are u surprise that its a pig?? cuz I am!HAHAHA..

2008-08-31T03:15:00.000-07:00

Jan had the fright of her life today!becuz she nearly got into accident!!it was so CLOSEEEE!!..

I was happily driving along Manning rd this afternoon(while on my way down for tennis), and two idiotic cars decided to come out from the junction(on my left). Eventually I thought they were gonna go into the left lane as I was on the right lane. And boy,how wrong was I!I horned as soon as I realized smtg was wrong. One stopped after I horned,while the other still decided to cut into my lane right IN FRONT of me.Thus, I have to jam brake and literally dropped from fifth gear to first gear.If I did not horned, the second car would have just run into me. Luckily I was just being myself, driving on whichever lane I like(fyi,I dont always stick to left lane when I'm not turning:p)and coincidently driving on the right lane..or else I comfirm kena hit already! It was seriously this CLOSEEEEE!!! For a while, I actually tot that my car was transparent thats why they couldnt see me *sarcastic*..

This incident really reminded me of what my instructor used to told me. "u can be a good driver, but doesnt mean that there arent any bad drivers out there. U dont only hold the life of yourself in your hand, but others as well!" How true is that!First time in my entire life,I truly understand what this statement really means..and I missed my instructor!

2008-08-30T09:06:00.000-07:00

Let me present u the story of a boy named Jxm. People say 'pictures paint a thousand words'. Hence, I decided to let the pictures tell the story..

Once upon a time, there were a boy who has only one pea for dinner.

he decided to show the world that man shall not live for food. BUT...

he failed miserably when more food was given to him..

HAHAHA..I'm just bored and decided to make up some story. I'm still in the slacking mood now:p

2008-08-27T09:43:00.000-07:00

so far my tuition free week can be sum up with group meetings, ministry meeting, excursion, meet ups, dinner, movie, baking and last but not least..TENNIS!!I got hit on the face today! yes, someone accidently hit me with the tennis ball. The feeling of being hit seems to be familiar. It was the common thing to experienced while I was still in the volleyball team back home.This aint the worst hit I have ever experienced. I have experienced a much violent hit where tears was pouring out uncontrollably(I wasnt crying!!)and I literally went dizzy for a while. Come to think about it, maybe I should go buy lotto/lottery now..HAHAHA:p

Oh!I'm really loving the challenge!I mean tennis lah:p

3 more days to go...

2008-08-25T09:23:00.000-07:00

5 more days to gOOoo!=)

2008-08-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

A new found hobby!I'm loving the challenge!=)

2008-08-23T11:57:00.000-07:00

me love the smell of Eucalyptus..how about u?

2008-08-21T01:13:00.000-07:00

Omg..what I said have seem to be proven right!Dont get me wrong, now that what I said have came true..it does not mean that I'm happy or I can be a prophecy.I just wish that u would have learned earlier.And to be honest,I would rather I'm wrong..

On the side note, today I went to buy *deng deng deng*...

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The traditional cough mixture

This is such a common cough remedy to a lot of us(who are from asia).Oh come on! admit that u tried it before:p To some people,this is just some disgusting black gluey cough mixture. But to me, its like a treat cuz I just simply love it. Yeah, I know u probably think that I'm weird..crazy..or call it whatever u like.Not that I care:p

Thank you to all of you who send me e-card, messages, sms, called or even send me home! U really made my day=) And also thank you to the brother who helped me buy honey and butter-menthol with honey-centre lozenges. Although am sick, but am blessed and loved!=)

2008-08-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

I got bored while working on my assignment.Hence I started to look back at those emails that were send to me down the few years road.Ever since I started my hotmail account, I never delete any of my emails. So, u can imagine how many hundreds or thousands of emails I have in my inbox.

I started to read from the very first email and proceed to the second one and so forth. While reading through all those mails, I teared! yes, u didnt get me wrong. I teared!I missed the moment when I was still in murdoch..I missed those moment where we send emails to encourage each other..I missed my ex-cellies..I missed my descipleship group..etc etc. Those were the best moment I ever had since I came to perth. For a while I actually wish that time would stop and I can go back to all those moments..

After reading a few more mails,I stumbled across this email which was send to me by a leader of mine.Well,even till today I still see the person as my leader=)

"...I want to say that you are a precious GEM, a PRINCESS of GOD,.. no matter what you face always remember that HE is GOD k? Nothing on this earth HE CAN NOT DO =)..."

Thank you for the reminder! Thank you!=)

2008-08-19T15:41:00.000-07:00

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Sick!=(

2008-08-18T08:49:00.000-07:00

Everyone have a side of weakness, no matter how strong u are.I really agree with that!

Its funny how everytime I woke up to find myself feeling unwell I'll cry. Well, today there's no exception when I woke up with a head that feels like as if its gonna explode(headache). And what make it worst was having fever and cough at the same time. *Sigh*..I hate falling sick!

2008-08-17T21:44:00.000-07:00

Went for a good run in Millpt after tennis just now..feel so good now!

Thats right, run it off! run it off!Learned this from a friend of mine:p It felt so good when your mind eventually went blank and stop thinking!

Thanks babe! I know who to find if i need a rant out=)

2008-08-12T14:10:00.000-07:00

<<巧克力的约定>>

我们，应该是因为巧克力而开始熟落起来吧？

不知道从什么时候开始，

一盒又一盒的巧克力，让我们的话题变得越来越多.

还记得第一盒巧克力，是杏仁与榛子口味的.

杏仁是你的最爱，而榛子是我的最爱.你还记得吗？

我们的点点滴滴，我总是忘不了，

有时候我在想，如果没有巧克力，或者我不喜欢吃巧克力的话，

我们会有那么多的故事吗？

从巧克力到海风，

这是我们的故事..